Hair Loss No More

I'm now in a salon to have my hair cut with mom who get facial upstair. But unfortunately there's no hairdresser who finished her job, so i have to wait. And it's totally boring. When my mom get facial, I'm here sitting alone reading Tempo. Aawwwh.. When can I got my hair cut?

Actually I wanna let my hair grow long, but because of this totally damn hair loss, i need to cut my hair. My doctor said it's better to have short hair during the treatment period... It reduces the weight that need to carry by my hair root. Because now my hair root is still weak.

Beside that the doctor gave me a lot medicine! Start from 2 hair tonics and 4 pills to drink everyday :(

Ohhh.. I never think this could be so serious.

AAAAAHH I hope my hair can be cured soon :D

Amin :)

Girls.. I Miss Ya All.. -__-

I just miss them already. Love ya MCK

New Year, New Design, New Spirit

May be it's too late to say new year. But however it's still January rite? Hwahahahahaha.. So now FINALLY I redecorate my blog. *jeng jeng jeng --> back sound*
Yeyyyy.. It took a whole night for me to redecorate this blog, thank's to uncle google who helped me a lot. Ahahahahaha :D
I hope with this new design I can be more often to write in this blog. And my english grammar will improve, and I hope this blog will make me able to write a good writing.




AAAAA MY GPA SCORE IS COMING


OH MY GOD.. SUPER GALAU NIH =_=

When You Can't Tell Anybody Else, Tell Your Mom

"There's nothing better than your mom advice"

These weeks were the hardest days I've ever had. Well may be for some people my problem was not so bad. But for me, it was new. I've never felt afraid, scared, depressed like this before. And all those feeling came up just because MY 1ST SEMESTER FINAL EXAM

I was kind of surprise, really, found out that I was afraid just because of an exam. I mean, I've been through all kind of exam in my life, but this is the first time ever that I felt so AFRAID. Not to bragging my self, but I NEVER afraid of a test. Even the college entrance test. It was usually cause I knew I can do it, or may be just my over confidence. But REALLY, I never got panic just because of a test.

But now it's so different. I'm afraid, panic, or you can say stress. I often cried just to think how the result could be. I'm desperate. My hair fell a lot and I couldn't stop worried about it. I felt confuse.

May be because this is something NEW. This is the first time for me. In whole of my life I always learn science and it's easy to me. But now I'm in A WHOLE NEW WORLD. Social science is really dynamic, you can't predict it, and it's all about analyzing. I'm not so confidence with my analyze comprehension. I feel like I'm not good in it. I feel I CAN'T do this.

I knew it was wrong. I believe that "you are what you think". But I can not stop thinking that I can't. Everytime I look my friend I always find that I feel insecure and not confidence. It feels like I'm the dumbest of all. But I know it's not true. I can do it. But I'm too afraid to fail. I always think that may be I will disappointing my parents If I fail. I know it's not true. My parents will accept me as their children even if I got a bad score, but I keep worried and felt guilty.

I never told this to everybody. I always pretend like nothings happened. But in silence, I always cry. Because I think there's no need to tell, I'm already know what should I do, but still I can't do it.

My heart felt heavy. Like something deep inside was hurt, and would explode.

So when I went back home yesterday I told my mom what I felt. It was so naturally, my mouth kept pouring out what's been troubled in my mind.

And really to tell your mom is a good decision. My mom said that's OK if I failed, but I should never repeat the same mistake. I should go up and fight back.

May be it's a short advice but it really made my heart lighter.

Love you Mom ;)

Last Day on 2010 : AWESOME :D

My family is HERE. Jyajajajajajajajajajajaja *weird sound?* Owowowowowo..

Aaaaa I'm so happy and tired.. Ahahahaha.

Yesterday we went to Malioboro and Beringharjo Market. Of course we were there for SHOPPING. Yeeeyyy..  We were so excited and didn't realize that we'd walked so far. That's why now I can't feel my leg. Hyahahaha..


Actually my mom wanted to go to Beringharjo to find bawang putih lanang (some kind of onion and it goods for your health, some said it can reduce your cholesterol level). But in the end we bought many things, from just onion to batik, gamis even tablecloth, hwahahahahaha. My mom bought tablecloth with Rama Sinta painting on it. My Dad got an awesome T-Shirt with Andong and Vespa pict on it. I got daster (sleepwear) and a pair of nice bangles :) My two little sisters, Dhila got Batik shirt for her school uniform and Icha got a super cute gamis. We really shopped till dropped (??)

And guess what, I got new printer, TV, and modem! Aaaaaa.. Such good things to seize new year.. Now my room become super complete :D